Saturday, October 20, 2007

then i sat down and started writing... (qotd:102007)









Paul Budnitz is the founder and president of Kidrobot. The place where the toys of your dreams are made and sold (some results many vary). I ran across this post of his while reading his blog.

"Being creative has nothing to do with your mind. The mind exists to judge, to criticize -- because it's a survival organ, the mind's primary function is to make sure we're safe, to judge if that yellow blob over there is a scary lion or a broken bulldozer. The mind can't deal with uncertainty, and being creative is always, always putting yourself in the land of the uncertain. To the untrained mind that's equivalent to walking into traffic blind. The prospect of something new, something that arrives out of nowhere is intrinsically terrifying to our egos.
There is no place for the mind during the process of actually creating things. We take advantage [of] our minds later, at the end of the process, to evaluate if what we have made is beautiful, ugly, scary, worthwhile, or might land us in jail.

Learning to become perpetually creative is nurturing the habit of getting our mind out of the way. Writer's block is just a habit. The amazing thing about human beings is that we can nurture new habits. We can retrain ourselves to create differently."

words to take to heart. not easy though. i think i'll reference this thought often when i feel i can't write. sometimes you have to turn off all the issues and all the rules and all the drama and just create.

especially the rules!

then if you feel the need, there is always the post-create self-edit?

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

happy radiohead day (qotd:101007)

one of my dearest friends, gina, messaged me today.
“happy radiohead day”

omg! how could i forget...

“is that 2day?”
i scrambled (dramatization?) toward the radiohead “dead air space” website. i had meant to get their new only-downloadable-from-their-website album the moment it was self-leaked.
eep!

another im came.
“used liz’s dnld link... do you want mine?”

omg omg omgomgomg!

“sure”

gina: “you’re gonna cry”

13 minutes later i was listening to the album track by track. i got stuck at ”nude” and listened twice. then at “weird fishes/arpeggi.” listened several times.

then it started... i had called her a liar...

i cried.

and i kept listening... “all i need” is painfully beautiful “...i'm the next act waiting in the wings... i'm an animal trapped in your parked car... i am all the days 
that you choose to ignore... you are all i need...”

i think i’ve listened to this album through about a hundred times in the past 3 hours. so far this is my fav.

it’s called “videotape

“when i'm at the pearly gates
this will be on my videotape, my videotape
mephistopheles is just beneath
and he's reaching up to grab me

this is one for the good days
and i have it all here
in red, blue, green

red, blue, green

you are my center
when i spin away
out of control on videotape
on videotape
on videotape
on videotape

this is my way of saying goodbye
because i can't do it face to face
i'm talking to you after it's too late
from my videotape

no matter what happens now
you shouldn't be afraid
because i know today has been the most perfect day i've ever seen.”






Tuesday, October 9, 2007

...if you want it... (qotd:100907)

On today's date in 1940, John Lennon was born. To celebrate, we went to see Across the Universe the new film directed by Julie Taymor featuring the music of the Beatles. I suddenly realized the significance of the timing of this film. We are in a war that is often compared to the war in Viet Nam. And we still talk of peace as if it’s the silly dreams of hippie fairy tails.

Lennon’s message was simple and yet profound. The most profound things usually are straightforward. That’s why in his honor I chose this quote of the day.

“...All you need is Love...”




poster reads:
WAR IS OVER!
if you want it
Happy Christmas from John & Yoko

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

if you've ever worked with any public service, then you know this is true. (qotd:092407)

so i was headed out to seattle for a little excursion. on the plane, the battery for my computer died. so i pulled out the usairways magazine and quickly shuffled back to the crossword and puzzle pages.

my qotd was the answer to one of the letter drop puzzles. it was an unexpected laugh. i love that!


“I personally think we developed language because of our deep inner need to complain.”
--Lily Tomlin


ps: i heart lily tomlin!

Sunday, September 23, 2007

...its too easy to wish you harm... qotd(092307)













Smokey Joe by Tori Amos has been in my head for a solid week. so really this should be my quote of the week. however, in an attempt to exorcize this demon, i put it on paper.

well, figuratively anyway.

if you are unfamiliar with Tori and her current album American Doll Posse (and quite frankly, out of the loop...), she often takes on the guise of the women who are (yes, are) her songs. in this album she just spelled it out for everyone. there are sides of her identity that present themselves when the situation warrants. these women are her posse, and they are

Pip
Santa











Tori

Isabel












and Clyde.












they all have their own special talents, and their own blogs. for more info, ask me or check out the toriphoria page http://www.yessaid.com/ also: http://toriamos.com and http://www.undented.com/ .





Pip sings this one. check out her blog at http://pipolitics.livejournal.com/


Smokey Joe you're calling at the station
"if I kill him there are complications"
i did not ask for this
"oh, but Love, yes you did"

maybe it terrifies me
this quiet siege
maybe it terrifies me

it's too easy
it's too easy
to wish you harm

you through black ice
at the bottom of the river


Smokey Joe, hey, what's a revelation
"that one's past is not a destination
it is a road for fools
who need empty approvals"

my dark twin
the annihilating Feminine
does not need
civilizing


...maybe it terrifies me
it's too easy to wish you harm...

...Smokey Joe is calling at the station...


for a reason, coincidence or otherwise, i started my walk with Smokey Joe shortly after my annoying, needy, self-centered ex text me yet again. every time i think of him or hear of him it makes me smile to think of his misery. and “maybe it terrifies me” that i can imagine such cruelty. or maybe i revel in it? either way i can’t really spend the time worrying about him and that past.

its time to work on my own karma... and if that means to stop wishing a pox on his head... guess i could try?



bonus download: Cruel by Tori Amos from the album From the Choirgirl Hotel (also sung by Pip years before Pip had a name) “...i can be cruel. i don’t know why...”

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

...and start again... (qotd:090507)

then i was unpacking stuff from boxes from my move... found this bit of music history (!)... used to love this song... still do...

sometimes you have to stop "walking around in circles"... and drop everything... start again... and start again... and start again... and start again... and start again... and start again...

"when the ghostly dust of violence traces everything
and when the gas runs out
just wreck it
you insured the thing.

i don't need to walk around in circles

well i know what i'm doin'

but i can't sigh now that you made the move
it has gone and gone to dogs
lay down on the floor
for the right price i can get everything
slip into the car.
go driving to the farthest star

i don't need to walk around in circles..."

walk around in circles
by soul coughing
album: el oso


...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again ...and start again...

Saturday, August 11, 2007

she said, "you have a bad attitude..." (qotd:081107)


continuing in the vein of yesterday’s quote of the day, i came across another song i love. i have diana krall’s version of this (from her disc when i look in your eyes). its a song called “devil may care.”

while that may sound rude. sometimes you have to take that attitude. even if just for the sake of your own personal sanity.

i just wish i could really take this attitude all the time. especially the part about having no regrets. that’s tough! i wish i could live my life wholly and honestly enough to never have a day end wishing it was different.

“no cares for me
i'm happy as i can be
i learn to love and to live
devil may care

no cares and woes
whatever comes later goes
that's how i'll take and i'll give
devil may care

when the day is through, i suffer no regrets
i know that he who frets, loses the night
for only a fool, thinks he can hold back the dawn
he was wise to never tries to revise what's past and gone

live love today, let come tomorrow what may
don't even stop for a sigh, it doesn't help if you cry
that's how i’ll live and i'll die
devil may care”

if you are unfamiliar with the amazing voice of diana krall, please check her out. totally worth a spin even if you aren't into jazz/blues. which why aren't you? it the bee's knees, the cat's pajamas, the quick train from squaresville to hiptown kid-o! (translation: all the cool kids are doing it)